Get a life (mini post)

Do you like lamps, bungee jumping, and red shirts? This week is the first issue in a new series "My Adventures with Death". Should I be concerned that thinking of different ways to kill a character is effortless? I hope you find it funny albeit dark (albeit? someone started using a thesaurus). Joking about death is one of the few coping mechanisms I have and yes I am playing the cripple card to justify that (he is basically a hero). Alright, let's delve into my mind.

Living is hard. I talk about death often enough on this blog that some people might get concerned (I'm sure the comic isn't helping). Living is what I want to talk about this week. If I am honest I am on borrowed time. It's easy to dwell on the painful parts of life. I could be bitter or a bigger a$$ hole like my friend said. Even though I joke about death regularly it's not what I want to leave behind. I want people to know I lived. Despite not getting the best starting roll, (D&D?) I never gave up, even when I felt like it. I like life. I love my family, my best friend who always has my back, food, drawing, making people laugh, road trips, and going for walks. I just want more.

I like the unique perspective my disease gives me. It peels away the unimportant things and the people who can't show up when you need them. I could use less of the periodic suffocation but what's life without a little choking (inappropriate!). To be serious for a second, I know I am lucky. I got more time than many of my friends. I can still use my hands and express myself. I can have conversations with people. I'm still angry my friends had to suffer but happy I can try to honor their memory. I hate saying it could always be worse because that means someone had it worse. Human suffering doesn't make me feel better for some reason. 

What all this boils down to is live life. Enjoy what you can do. Life is hard sometimes but it's still filled with beauty, humor, and the good stuff of life. 

My advice this week is don't chase people who don't put effort into a relationship and don't give anything in return. You can still love people just the people you let close to you should show some effort. Everyone needs support sometimes and it can be exhausting chasing people who can't show effort. With some exceptions, the people who want to be in your life will be. It is hard for me to give up on people. You can't make someone want to show up. I hope this all made sense or you like the comic. Until next time crips and non-crip, I believe in you!